And from now on I will continue to remind and remember and reflect on the moments that have indeed affected and tormented and changed my life for the better and the confusing but in all reality have set the pace of my day. I wish to hold on to the past for i'm worried I will not remember in the future. However I must not be caught up in the past, I do not wish to stay there. I want to move forward, but not too fast. I need to hold on to what I have while I have it. I am afraid of losing this feeling, this reaction to life, again...I need the months to move faster, and when the day arrives I need time to move so slow that it repeats itself eternally in my mind. Eternally yours.